Mary Magdalene

Some thoughts from my recent retreat —

I sit wondering
who I am,
who you are,
wanting to know both more.

MARY MAGDALA’S EASTER PRAYER

I never suspected

Resurrection

and to be so painful

to leave me weeping

With Joy

to have met you, alive and smiling, outside an empty tomb

With Regret

not because I’ve lost you

but because I’ve lost you in how I had you –

in understandable, touchable, kissable, clingable flesh

not as fully Lord, but as graspably human.

I want to cling, despite your protest

cling to your body

cling to your, and my, clingable humanity

cling to what we had, our past.

But I know that…if I cling

you cannot ascend and

I will be left clinging to your former self

…unable to receive your present spirit.